- a homemade portland
I was hoping you’d notice my haircut.
I was hoping you’d be there in the morning.
Sometimes things just don’t work out.
If you wanted me to stay, then why didn’t you just say so? If you want me to, I’ll tell you just what you want to hear tonight. I’ve been drowning in plastic cups, just hoping that someone would notice. Devin is my best friend and we’ve been lighting up at recess.
- Couches
I’ve been smoking out of boredom.
And i’ve been sleeping on the couch.
When you call I’ll be right here waiting just like every day.
I hope the west coast treats you well,
and I hope that someday you’ll realize
what i’ve realized.
Give it some time to play itself out,
you will be the last one that I tell that I still love you.
- Monuments
Monuments
I thought I’d write to you and let you know that I’m still dramatic and sixteen.
I thought I’d call you and tell you that I’m still miserable without you.
I thought I could find you in the bottom of a plastic cup but, like we both know,
- One For the Road
Leave my best intentions at home and drive around. This city’s dead and tired and unsure of how to feel.
Another bad attempt at feeling okay in the town I’m in. I begin feeling sad and I’m sick, and I finally come to realize…
The seasons come and go, blind with promises. I love you now, I loved you a year ago today. Yet, I hate the feeling of your fingers on my face.
We both tried our hardest to save this, yet, I hate the feeling of your fingers on my face.
- There's Too Much Talk About Ghosts
I’m taking pictures of the people that belong on my wall, to remind myself of summer and the way it felt last Fall. When I could sleep. And I can’t sleep.
I can’t do this, Em. You’re faded and I’ve turned to black, as far as I can tell. I can’t do this, Emily. You can’t just put your trust in me, I’ll leave you once again.
Once again, I’ll fade to black. It’s too late to call. It’s too late and nothing will ever be the same at all.
I’m restless like the summer, worn out like father’s day cards. Dripping from top floor windows, I threw up blood and crashed my car.
- Weekdays
January came. And January left.
I’m still clinging to every word you said.
It’s been too long since I last saw you.
What’s a boy to do?
- You Shouldn't Even Know Who That Is
We burnt out like cassettes that won't play. I understand now why you couldn't stay. "I'm really sorry." I tried to hold onto your crooked hands but should've let go. It's pointless now but I think you should know I realize that I was wrong.
I'll slit my throat, turn into a ghost, cross my fingers and never let go.
I've got a feeling in my head and my heart, we try to keep ourselves together but we're falling apart. Try to explain just why we can't keep ourselves in tact, it's true, but explanations won't do us any good, anymore.