- A Golden Grey
She walks with a sadness like she's never known
Exiting from the back in black from head to toe
A swallow of stale station air
Leaving behind the taste of despair
Almost running into someone she used to know
As fragile as a flower
She wonders if she can go on
It's been a long morning
- A Kiss From The Sky
Beyond the back row off the beat and path
step into a field of dying blades of grass
so thick I have to use my hands
and slowly sinking in quicksand
I'll pull away till I can see again
Staring down with a kiss from the sky
unsure what feeds the flame
I know a secret way
- Again and again
sick and angered by my friends extremely cold and heartless
honest talkin shit behind my back about me to my friends
the source a jealous passion towards a spirit stuck in contention
and fame just need some time to myself again need to bring back
the old days when i was in control of my life again and again just endangered
my friends extremely bold and honest i'll be when it comes to me i said i'm sorry
but you don't hear me i tried to say that i was sorry to you
but you don't think i speak honestly thats ok cause i can move on i'm so sorry....
- Art
Occasionally I feel like the walls around are closing in on me
Physically I feel sometimes I need seclusion to be free
The irony at last I see reality is my perception
And my personality is my reflection
I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
Yesterday’s pains today
I must eliminate and change yesterday’s
- Birthday
V1: All you'd show is love
Yet all I'd see is hate
You know that something's wrong
I know I can't relate
Wind is blowing pleasure by
And I don't feel a thing
Emotion fills the sky
Erosion clouds my brain
- Breathe
Jealousy is raining down on me right now
As the fear of losing you is setting in
But ill continue to do my best
Although its scary
Wondering if this will be the very first time to lose
And not to win
And I've got no backup plan
- Calling
Your face is burned inside my brain
I lost my way
Your taste of stale flows through my veins
The cost of hate
‘Cause you’ll never understand me
You want me to stay
You’re c-c-c-calling but I can’t hear you
- Comeback
Ill times rollin' lackin the flow
Ache in my throat and wisdom seems so lost,
And yet it's better in ways it's different,
I miss those oldschool meditations when relaxing
And getting visions was a given
With my eyes closed I propose a toast,
To myself to find the time to ask my Lord and galaxy
To...
- Dreams
Confusing reality...
I see myself but it's not really me
How could it be?
When I am me?
I guess maybe it's just a dream
(come on come on, come on wake up wake up)
Things aren't what they seem
- Emotional Times
life sucks sometimes, friendships turn to lies,
a hatred in disguise it brings tears to my eyes,
i can see the truth from the neutral side in my mind,
confusion cripples me unto my element of control unsureness.
emotional times i'm just fine.
trauma's etched in my mind, i can see 'em all the time,
i've seen my share of pain and suffering,
i am just fine, respecting something more than nothing all the time,
- Everything
Grown up an only child
One parent home
I was spoiled and doubted not trusted
Neglected by others around
You saved…
You saved me
- Fault
Why did I let you inside my life,
How could I let you inside my body, my soul, my brain,
Now I can't make you go away,
You're driving me insane and inside out...
I can tell,
It's meaningful and so hurtful,
There's no place just to hide,
- Footprints
It's dark outside,
It's cold and empty like my mind,
But who would know,
I can't make it right,
I know it's on me but I can't fight,
And i'm on my own,
And I don't get to watch you grow, for now;
- Fractured
Your story only tells one side,
It's based on fact, but filled with lies
(you'd be rich if each was worth a dime)
I played my part and that's defined
You played the field on borrowed time
(and i know that fault was all but mine)
- Game Over
Game over now
Anticipating what's been done is done
My contradiction takes away the sun
Evolving sideways back and forth we sway, evolving sideways back and forth we stay
Every once upon a time, when vast apologies were fine
Exit silence and sweep the deck below
Reality's my bitch this time, and yesterday's now history
Outro silence, and I'm on deck alone
- Good Morning
Scraping film away your eyes awake to quite the sight
a strobing TV static flares the neon motel light
a tray of ash so full a candle burns at both it's ends
a stack of empty bottles posing in the corner as your friends
this place is a scene
and now you believe
this place is obscene,
- Hand That Holds True
The manic stage,
A scary phase
Feeding all I know,
A cloudy haze,
The hectic pace,
Strips me of my throne,
It seems there is nothing but you,
To please in this world around you,
- Karmaway
Everyday now seems the same,
Only the faces change,
Every time I visualize myself,
I'm nowhere to find in hell,
Surrounded by evil from inside,
Surrounded by people that have died;
Karma take me away;
- Lost Boy
Sitting in motion the notion of pulling away
Setting emotion's erosional ocean to keep you at bay
Time is of the essence a presence to right what's wrong
Knowledge crying lessons unpleasant the method for what you long
Taking over, it's been so long
Moving forward, it's where you belong
Taking over, it's been so long
- Lost In The Woods
Tonight I'm freakin' out again
Tonight I'm thinkin' so low
All I wanted was a friend all I've got is no one
Tonight I'll sleep alone I won't sleep at all
My heart isn't alive
Right now I'm sinking further down
Right now I'm breaking inside
- Memorial Park
Ascending from the depths, again
among the living steps, again
emerge into the day, again
back to where you're safe, again
sensing close now
3 rocks to the 1
underneath the clouds
2 blocks before the sun
- Mine
When I look into your eyes, you help me realign
Ensure me of just how to be myself inside
I'm in control of everything
It's taking time but that's ok
I can bring you to my side
You're my blessing in disguise
- Nightmare
You painted offense while you plead a defense
You took advantage of average
You pleased those deceived but couldn't earn me
My god wouldn't use his leverage
If faith had an 800 number
I'd disconnect myself
If I had to be a member
- No Surrender
On your feet rush rush to the street rush
Face defeat as if no one makes it out alive still try
Flee the scene hush hush be discreet hush
Go unseen unlike every breath you take can be as the clerk said passing by
Like a dream such nothing's what it seems much
Just deceit as if time could stop your stride now free outside
To the beat pump skipping every speed bump
There's no leaves,
- No View Is True
We don't have to see, eye to eye, as long as we get along
We don't have to hear, ear to ear, as long as it's a great song, playing
Different strokes for different folks, if
I've found no religion, but I still have faith
I've made some decisions, but I'm following my fate
I'm not so indifferent, everyone is the same
We're all just opinions, that extinguish the flame
- Now Rise
On your feet now rise, Defend yourself or hold your peace
Honored one's in disguise, to cast away or make believe
It's now a matter of opinion, be careful what you say
You want a stayed execution, plead the fifth which you may
Intended quiet makes a deafening sound
While missing nothing can be lost and found
That's why
Join us (what goes up must come down) this law effects us all
- Poem
Overbearing panic attack entrenching my veins
In an hour I'll be okay I pray that this pain will go away permanently someday
I've seen more than I should have to I've seen this on my own
This song is a poem to myself it helps me to live
In case of fire BREAK the glass and move on into your own
your own
- Promise
Tonight's the night in your arms again
Be the one to make me whole and then
Say whatever you have to say to me on and honestly
Every single thought of you amazes me
So I'll promise you, I'll promise you to me
(Every single time that you've forgiven me)
- Release Me
Why rise and shine,
another 21 hours ruined by my voice
Fine gift of mine, offensive cloudiness showers though not by choice, yet
Not just unrelatable, just...
Release me, from what I've done
Release me, from what I've done
- Run To
I don't want the hall of fame,
I just want you to know my name,
I can't see just where you are but it's alright,
Somewhere out there in the night,
Someone's feeling out of sight,
I can't see just where you are but, it's alright;
I can be the one you run to tragedy,
- She
She gets everything she wants, but nothing that she needs.
No respect for what things cost, or who she wants to be,
Just neglect for what's been lost, 'cause nothing is for free.
How can we let her get away with being this way,
We've been shattered by her can't you see she has to pay.
In her shadow I reside,
I scream but no one's listening.
- Smile
Smile!
Can't you see I'm still me,
anti authority.
Same philosophy,
enjoying life as
much as,
I can
- So Eager
It breeds a one man show mentality self serving force fed and condoned
It takes my breath away to know that no one else believes they're in control
(Save us) From ourselves
We're at a loss of words while preaching that we can't be heard
The image staring back at you is what you hate (you don't)
Truly think forgiveness is on the way
Seven years you lost for breaking one mistake (ingrown)
- Stares
Can someone explain to me why
Everyone's in such a hurry to say goodbye?
A rush into the finish line
With no time to spare
I'm not a loner, I'm a miracle
So go, save yourself
I'm not alone because you're never there
- Sumtimes
What I excel in best
Is my excessiveness
Self deprecation
I hate myself sometimes
How can I be down when all that I want is in my reach
What's wrong with me?
Fuck it
- The Everlasting
It's 8am and her blood's still warm
the radio choke's out my favorite song
i hear sirens, they sing along...
my pulse is pumping to the beat outside
a violent screaming rise and shine
waves of helplessness reach to the sky...with heartbreak eyes
and as the walls around come crashing down
- Trophy WiFi
She's been a target before
And he knows her handle well
Emission nocturnal with envy, now
She's rang his bell, but doesn't know it
Universal in never ending,
Running from herself
No reversal though in his calling
- Violent Seas
Standing on a land unknown interpreting the same
Believing in a chance of hope and see it slowly fade
It's breaking far away replacing what I'm made of
Looking for a way to show that I'm
Searching for a faith who knows that I'm
Screaming for a place to go, 'cause I'm drowning in the violent seas
of being force fed societies
- When
Can't seem to find myself in the smoke filled room again
The lesson of being bored and naïve so I've been told
Its just my own problem
That I succumb from the bottom
Looking up at the reflection above of those below
Yea well I know, there’s no point in rushing
I'll get my change when
- Wherever I Stand
If only I could show you
Just how much I really care
Everyday I'm torn apart
Not knowing if you're even there
Yet again
You're a testimony
Now and then